Friday, July 30, 2010

MRS STRONG

this is sweet kan ?

hmm , tak tahu nak tulis apa . cuma yeah , i am giving up :) this is the best for me i think, thanks dude because you make me fall in love with you . from now on , i will awayy from you :') i love you dude , but yeah we are not meant to be together, i will forget about you . everything :) im a little strong girl :D i know that :')

Thursday, July 22, 2010

missing you

HAPPY OUR FIRST YEAR ANNIVERSARY

do you know how much i miss you dudee ?

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hey yaw , i've watched the TWILIGHT SAGA ECLIPSE :) haha ! *proud*

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Kerana Keperibadiannya Aku Jatuh Cinta

do you believe in love ? okay, i wrote about this because i think im in love, yes i am. do you know how i feel ? i feel happier than before :) i kept smiling kept smiling everywhere i go . so yeah , i want to be with himmm , hahahahha *desperate* so just waiting . dah bye :D hahahha

Couple is not an easy thing

This is how the storyy ,

i know deep in my heart i don't love both of them anymore, but the memory. do you still remember the fuck fuck memory we had , it's sweet. thats why i started to miss them and crying and crying all the time. but i know i don't love them. okay , lemme tell you, if i have one chance to be with one of them again, do i have to be with them again ? the answer is no and no . because i don't love them, but why i must jealous with their happiness ? it's weird -,-

so yeah, i know what i have to do know . first concentrate on my study i mean my PMR ! oh my, you know PMR is just sround the corner. i have to get ready! and yeah after PMR i've planned to find a new boyfriend :) can't wait for this. heh :D so yeah , i have to go . cooking time ! bye!

Friday, July 9, 2010

You're The Best I Ever Had

Baby, you my everything, you all I ever wanted
We can do it real big, bigger than you ever done it
You be up on everything, other hoes ain't never on it
I want this forever, I swear I can spend whatever on it

'Cause she hold me down every time I hit her up
When I get right I promise that we gonna live it up
She make me beg for it till she give it up
And I say the same thing every single time

I say you the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the best I ever had, best I ever had
Best I ever had, best I ever had, I say you the fucking

Know you got a roommate, call me when it's no one there
Put the key under the mat, and you know I'll be over there
I'll be over there, shawty, I'll be over there
I'll be hitting all the spots that you ain't even know was there

Ha and you all ain't even have to ask twice
You can have my heart or we can share it like the last slice
Always felt like you was so accustomed to the fast life
Have a nigga thinking that he met you in a past life

Sweat pants, hair tied, chillin' with no make-up on
That's when you're the prettiest, I hope that you don't take it wrong
You don't even trip when friends say you ain't bringin' Drake along
You know that I'm working, I'll be there soon as I make it home

And she a patient in my waiting room
Never pay attention to them rumors and what they assume
And until them girls prove it
I'm the one they never get confused with

'Cause baby, you my everything, you all I ever wanted
We can do it real big, bigger than you ever done it
You be up on everything, other hoes ain't never on it
I want this forever, I swear I can spend whatever on it

'Cause she hold me down every time I hit her up
When I get right I promise that we gonna live it up
She make me beg for it till she give it up
And I say the same thing every single time

I say you the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the best I ever had, best I ever had
Best I ever had, best I ever had, I say you the fucking

Sex, love, pain, baby, I be on that tank shit
Buzz so big, I could probably sell a blank disk
When my album drop, bitches will buy it for the picture
And niggas will buy it too and claim they got it for they sister

Magazine, paper, girl, but money ain't the issue
They bring dinner to my room and ask me to initial
She call me the referee 'cause I be so official
My shirt ain't got no stripes but I can make your pussy whistle

Like the Andy Griffith theme song
And who told you to put them jeans on
Double cup love, you the one I lean on
Feeling for a fix then you should really get your fiend on

Yeah, just know my condo is the crack spot
Every single show she out there reppin' like a mascot
Get it from the back and make your fucking bra strap pop
All up in yo slot until the nigga hit the jackpot

Baby, you my everything, you all I ever wanted
We can do it real big, bigger than you ever done it
You be up on everything, other hoes ain't never on it
I want this forever, I swear I can spend whatever on it

'Cause she hold me down every time I hit her up
When I get right I promise that we gonna live it up
She make me beg for it till she give it up
And I say the same thing every single time

I say you the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the best I ever had, best I ever had
Best I ever had, best I ever had

I say you the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the best I ever had, best I ever had
Best I ever had, best I ever had

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

i kept my promise , do you ?

Selasa , 6.30 p.m

Aku membaca buku agama islam , dan sambil itu aku menghafalnya . wahhh , banyak sungguh perlu ku baca yah? Sekarang aku dah ada azam untuk mecapai target ku :) haha , baru nak insaf kan ? hmm , tiba tiba mood hilang. Aku ternampak sehelai gamba yang betul2 berada di hadapan ku , gamba seorang wajah yang tak pernah buat aku bersedih pada suatu ketika dulu, dan aku hampir menitiskan air mata ku. Kenapa mesti aku ingat kau ? Aku rindu kau weh :'( sesangat. Kau baik. Tapi aku kene kuat , aku sedar aku siapa buat kau. Wahai lelaki yang budiman, aku sayang kau yang teramat , kenapa sebegini kau buat aku?

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Aku terus menarik nafas , dan melupakan perkara yang lama , aku keluar dari bilik dan cuba merelexka diri , allah maha berkuasa . Aku percaya kebahgiaan akan datang juga kepada aku suatu hari nanti :')

Friday, July 2, 2010

F A I Z

Deares Faiz ,

this is my second letter for you . I just want you to know i just want to be your friend . Not more than that . You know that i cant accept anyone for this time. You're just my friend i mean my best friend . I dont want you to think that im starting in love with you or what. Im afraid if your heart will hurt again by me. I hope you understand okay. I just want you to be my closer friend :) Thats the only i can say :) Thank You ♥

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Hari Usahawan 2010

Harini Hari Keusahawanan kot kot :)

Papa hantar aku ke rumah farahin, dan ibunya yang menghantar kami ke sekolah. Aku dengan bahagia-nya membawa kek coklat fara dan kamu terus menuju ke kelas. Tiba-tiba mereka mereka suruh membawa kek itu ke tempat jualan. Jadi, kami pun bergerak ke foyer B :) Kedai kami bersebelahan dengan KAA . Dan hadapan kami 5 Intan. Aku yang membawa alas meja guru dan menjadikan alas meja untuk tempat jualan . hehehe :) Selepas itu, kami menyusun sana sini , Thasya mahu menjual CUPCAKE , Fara kek coklat dan Amnani cheese cake.

Selepas mengemas dan menyusun , aku dengan tiada keje nye membuat tanda nama drpd rama2 kertas, wahh ramai tau yang pakai. Comel lagi tuh ;) Tiba-tiba ada dua orang guru dtg kepada kami dan ingin membelik kek kami, wahh nampaknya laku juga ya cupcae ini, alhamdulilah la kan ? Time aku tengah duduk sambil memegang bekas duit, aku tarik baju syahirah yang sedang berdiri di sebelah ku. Aku katakan yang aku bahagia harini sebab blablabla. Syahirah hanya menganguk kan kepalanya dan kata baguslah. Aku pun memandang kehadapan dan menunggu pembeli seterusnya :')

Semakin lama semakin ramai pulak yang beli, untung kali ni ya :) Seronok jadi penjual ini. Lama-lama aku sudah kepenatan. Peluh-peluh dibuatnya. Aku pun terus keluar drpd tapak jualan dan pergi menghilangkan peluh dan tgk-tgk tapat jualan yang lain, aku pergi ke naz tgk la kan apa yang dijualnya . Tiba tiba aku ternampak yang IQ punya besi tuh . Dia jual RM6 , apahal murah ni ? Maybe kecik sikit kot. then aku beli jela :D Hehe , jalan sana sini . Masa pun makin suntuk , ada 10 lagi cupcake kene dijual so kami mengambi keputusan untuk meronda sana sini sambil mejual cupcake itu. Apa yang diangankan termakbul , faizah yang memegang bakul itu dan menjerit cupcake2 , hahahah:D Aku gelak jelah, then aku jauh2 drpd dieorg , hahaha , jahat en aku ? Akhirnya kami habis menjual cupcake . YEPEEEE

Kami ke tempat asal, dan mengatakan semuanya dah hbs dijual ;) Mereka semua gembira kerana cupcake sudah habis dijual kan ? Mestilah gembira :) So masa untuk haiza , fara dan fai jalan jalan . Kami ronda2 sana sini tiba-tiba terjumpa amza di foyer C , sekali lagi dia buat lawak. Aku tergelak gelak jela. Bengong betul dia ni , lepak2 kejap then balik kelas :)

Selepas itu, aku masuk ke-kelas untuk hantar bakul tiba tiba farahin hilang. Aik mana dia ni, setelah kuteliti dia berada di hadapan surau. Aku pun terkedek-kedek ke sana :) Mereka sedang mengira untung, dan aku pula mengambil handphone fara dan mendengar lagu yang tak sepatutnya aku dengar :') Aku sengaja memandang ke belakang supaya mereka tak nmpk riak wajah aku. Tetapi aku terlupa yang berhadapan aku adalah bilik KHB , bilik yang banyak memory tahun lepas pada hari usahawan juga :') aku cuba menenangkan diri aku dan kembali memandang ke mereka dan gelak2 bersama .

Aku menuju ke cabin dan menyanyi bersama rakan-rakanku :D Suara kami sedap lah ! Haha. Dan selepas itu, kami lepak diluar kelas. Tiba2 ada makhluk datang dan menyuruh kami ke dewan arahan puan norafzan. Kami semua pergi lah ke sana, rupa-rupanya kan kene kemas dewan! aish , malas ni. Aku dgn fara pun mengelat. Kiterog ke bilik redaksi sebab nampak ellena, ain, jihan dgn syida. Tak kuperasan ada amza. Kiteorg sekali lagi gelak2 bersama. Tiba2 amza hilang, dan tadaa dia keluar kan dengan jeans hitam2 dan baju belang2 biru putih. Amza you look so handsome :)

Tiba2 aku tersentap, aku dah tiada mood untuk melakukan sesuatu, aku hanya ingin menitiskan air mata aku. Sampai dirumah dan sekarang aku menangis sekali lagi, nak tahu apa yang aku fikirkan ? haih. Ya Allah, aku ingin melupakannya ya Allah . Kenapa susah sgt ? Aku tak pernah minta apa apa pun melainkan melupakannya :'(

And the ending was , i cried again in my bedroom :'(

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Kenangan itu masih ada , Ada orang cakap jangan hidup dengan kenangan.
Tetapi kenapa aku sebegitu. sedangkan dia sudah melupakan aku 100%
Kenapa aku masih menjadi seorang wanita yang desperate ?
Aku inginkan pembaharuan , aku inginkan sesuatu yang buat aku happy kembali .
Itu saja jalan yang terbaik untuk aku :'(